If you follow me on Yelp in the SF Bay Area, you know I frequent many coffee shops, rushing always to find the newest one and try the newest roaster. Lately though, I have what I refer to as sour face, and here is how I get it. It starts like this, at some point in the day I am faced with the need for a cup of coffee. I source a coffee shop and walk in and order one of the following beverages, an…
What is your story? I am sharing mine, but tell me yours…
I know the world is in Germany fever over winning the world cup. So happy for them…but my heart is still ITALIA!!!!
It’s positive Mondays…here is a little reason for you to think on the brighter side of things
The Thief of Joy
Well I stepped away for a while, to go on vacation, and spend some time away from the computer, tablet and mobile screens that govern most of my time and life. I might be the only one, but in a sense, this gave me a lot of anxiety. I found myself feeling irritable, anxious and nervous about traveling. 10 days away from work, family, friends, my new blogs and ventures, was causing me a busy brain, with all sorts of creative and elaborate stories on what could go wrong, when and how. Anything from, “Did I remember to unplug the microwave, or turn off the stove.” To, “I hope I turned in that report to my boss before I left.” When I landed, and I chose to go to Hawaii, Kona specifically, and the plane doors opened, I was expecting, well a sort of paradise. Now, I am not sure if any of you have been to Kona, but it is a different kind of paradise. When you first get off the plane, the place is, well, ugly. It’s in your face, with large piles of lava rock, that set for a foreboding energy. I am sensitive to energies, other peoples, places, I believe everything vibrates. I could go on about the landscape, the volcanoes that I toured and how the natives believe and attribute their great power to the Goddess Pele. More on her in a bit, because man, she moved me in a big big way.
But since most of you are reading this on a tablet, and or phone, and for the sake of attention spans, which if you made it this far, kudos to you. In short, the message I wanted to get across to everyone is this one:
Every time you push back, you insert your ego, your emotion, you give in to that little voice in your head that insists on being heard and buffaloing through the situation; these kinds of thoughts, emotions and actions can actually ruin what the true destination is supposed to be.
Every time I thought I could outsmart, I thought I was entitled, I wanted to control, direct, dictate what I thought the scenario should be-the universe stepped in to shut me down. I received a speeding ticket, I wasted an entire day searching for ways to leave Kona and go to another island, citing reasons why Kona was the worst, I almost incurred more money and almost risked incurring a debt to see if I could move islands. I annoyed people in my path, gave myself a headache, gravitated to unhealthy foods, and broke out.
Then I arrived at a beach, frazzled, frenetic and cranky. Frustrated that things did not look, taste, smell as I thought they should. When I realized that things are exactly as they should be. That the scenery was perfect, orchestrated by the biggest power of all, nature. That my feelings were even perfect, because it meant I needed to completely blow (ironically picking Kona, the Volcanic eruption of an Island) in order to make space for the peace that comes, when I go with the flow.
I realized that the thief of joy comes when we, when I try to orchestrate and force what my plan is on the rest of the universe. And that ultimately, I became more powerful and had an incredible restful vacation, when I began to accept reality and make peace with the challenges.
I am not perfect. Not everyday do the teachings of Buddha and Pema Chodron insert themselves immediately when I am feeling sad, angry or like I have not been heard.
But the biggest and best, the most freeing realization was claiming my power back. There is power in going with the flow. Remember, the thief of joy is when we justify our need to control. I am a work in progress, admittedly, a control freak here. But 10 days of no control, taught me, true abundance comes, when I table this control tooth, and nourish it with releasing the tension. As the Hawaiins say, you really do need to hang loose.
Sometimes the universe knows and just says hello. My coffee tooth is now satisfied #food #coffee #Kona #itsasign #coffeeaddic (at Kona Haven Coffee)
The #avocado mash minus the bread a #biohacker delight #paleo #food #foodiewannabe #rawfooddiet (at Daylight Mind Coffee Company)
Oh you know, just a #peacock roaming around #notatthezoo #isthatreal I named him Luigi (at Nechung Droje Ling)
My buddhist retreat. His Holiness the Dalai Lama has been here twice. #buddhist #DalaiLama #Gratitude #spirit #Hawai’i #Spirituality (at Nechung Droje Ling)